...Suddenly Things Begin To Change?

2002-07-09 @ 2:27 p.m.
lame ass day, but still coolies

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Ello all!

Today fucking sucks :)

First, i wake up just in tyme to hear that I missed seeing Ricky leave .. that was lame ...

Then, i call arouund, and no one has any cool plans! YaY!!

So then Im filling out an application so that I hav all the info for when I do it fer reals... and i dont hav all the info.. i need some dates n shit ... and addresses of both Kmart n Jack-in-the-box ... it was really lame ..

So Im gonna go drive arounnd, collect info .. right? I thought i left my wallet in the car, but i remember taking out my wallet n putting it somewhere... Well, its not Anywhere in my car .. i cleaned my room looking for it ... i went all around jeffs house ... Its NOWHERE to be found ... So i gotta get home by 4pm to call to get everything cancelled ... Fucking sucks ...

Im actually, suprizingly in a good mood!? ... I called Alidia, nothing to do, but still worth mentioning ...

And I got an email from Emma .. It was cool :D thats prolly hat made my day .. Shes so sweet .. I cant imagine why shes so nice to me.. al she keeps finding out about me is bad ... I dont get it .. but since its really coolies, im not gonna question it ..

She so awesome, she works arouund computers n stuff!! This is too cool!! Shes just lucky i cant cross 2000 miles that easyily ... If she lived anywhere within the 916 area code .. well, i wouldnt be here right now, thats fer DAMN sure!!

On a much scaryer, less coolies note ... As I jot down these passing thoughts, foprget all these things i type .. new, older memorys come back .. and their scary .. Im now remembering exactly why I need a 'Reset' ... and Im also remembering what i cant ... I already knew/remember that I had councelling when I was little ... and i think i was in it for at least a year ... But saee, I cant remember not even ONE session .. i dont remember ANYTHING that happened .. i remember waiting fer my session so many tymes, sitting, waiting .. but i cant remember anything after i actually got in .. except for two, once when I got in trouble for somethin i dont think i did, and once when i was trying to get him to tell my mom to expand my boundries .. i was 9 and only allowed to go down the street .. it was lame ... So i really fear what im not remembering... since what I do remember was really really bad, then how awful is the stuff too awful to remember??

So anyways ..

No sign of Lacey anywhere... im wondering if shes purposely avoiding me, or if shes just not online ever .. or if shes online alot, but not responding? ... oh well, ill get my answer eventually ...

I really hate it when ppl instead of typing an entry, put up lyrics to a song ... really annoys me .. It also is lame when the type somethin really short n lame .."I had a day .. it was today.. *end*" <<--- id actually be more amused with that then some of the lame entrys iv seen of ppl .. but those ppl i never bother to talk to, so fsck them ...

And now, im gonna be a hypocrite... but at least i typed some stuff too!!

Sad But True

Hey

I'm your life

I'm the one who takes you there

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I'm your life

I'm the one who cares

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they betray

I'm your only true friend now

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